Happy Sunday! As you might have noticed, I haven’t been posting as much as usual over the past few weeks. The stress of starting a new school year paired with college applications isn’t leaving much time for blogging, but I promise the end of college applications and submission of my first major assignment are in sight! I’m excited to have more time for blogging within the next month or so. Anyways, today I’m sharing my thirty-ninth volume of “Scripture Sunday.” I’m talking a little about the comfort God’s giving me in this weird season of life. Enjoy!
Proverbs 3:5; Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.
Deciding where to go to college is a big decision. I have a list of schools I’m applying to where I could definitely see myself being happy, but that list is accompanied with so much fear that I won’t get into my top choice, or that when I get to tour I won’t even like my top choice. The concept of college is tricky because you want to pick a school where you’ll be happy, get a good education, and meet people you genuinely want to be friends with forever. This season of my life where I’m not sure where I’m going or exactly what I’m doing isn’t my favorite, I like order and plans.
I’ve been reading Sarah Young’s Jesus Calling: Enjoying Peace in His Presence devotional every day for almost two months now, and recently Proverbs 3:5 was one of the Scriptures included in the reading. This verse says “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.” Right now, I really have no choice. I can submit all of my applications and lay awake at night anxiously wondering where I’ll get in, but that brings no hope. Remembering the ways God revealed Himself to me while on Work Crew and realizing that God frequently does things in my life that I couldn’t have planned for or wanted but always somehow turn out better than what I had planned, that brings hope. I’ve memorized this verse as a reminder for all the little times when it doesn’t look like He’s working in my favor, like when I get a bad grade on a test or I can’t go to an event I’d been hoping for, because He’s most definitely doing something bigger and better for me than what I thought I needed.
Instead of anxiously anticipating a decision from what I imagine to be the best place for me, I’m handing it over to God. One thing I know for certain is that I’ll get in wherever God wants me to go, and I know the things He has planned for me there will be far better than the earthly and materialistic things I imagine accompanying where I want to attend. I definitely still struggle with doubt and my own desires for my college path, but I can always find comfort in Scripture that God’s plan is bigger than my dreams.
This week, remember that you can’t see the big picture. Remember that God knows what He’s doing and why, and maybe one day you’ll look back and realize you’re glad nothing was any different. He has a purpose for every perfect moment and every flaw in our lives. He has a plan for you.
Thanks for reading! Have a blessed week!